There's always a back and forth in a mind of a young dreamer who just wants to create the ideas that appear. There's a drive to create it all no matter the troubles that arise, but there's also a point where the troubles overwhelm the dreamer. Thoughts of never "making it" or achieving success in his eyes make it seem like he will end up a failure. Maybe in an alternate universe, he might not be successful but that's not something he cares about. Throughout it all, nothing makes him happier than doing what he loves to do, and that's creating.